She cancerVIVE!

"Have you heard about *******?" this was the first message that appeared on the chat option of my facebook account. A message coming from my aunt who had been living in the US for a long time.
I then replied, "yes, mama told me that they have found a mass on her liver."
The next reply was like a bomb that had just exploded. My aunt confirmed my greatest fear. Yes, the fear that this mass will be a malignant one. It is cancer, stage IV, and since it is already stage IV, it had metastasize to her brain and lungs.
I paused for a while trying to comprehend every word that was written on the message. I remember the last time she visited our place. She was athletic, full of energy and without a doubt, very healthy. We had a fun time exploring the hundred islands in Alaminos, Pangasinan, in which she taught me how to kayak. The Baguio experience was great too, she shop for a lot of native things as well as for the famous Sungka and we had a great time tasting her favorite filipino dishes. And now, she is damn sick.
Cancer is becoming ramphant nowadays. Genes added by poor lifestyle is always the root cause of the disease. And when people hear that one has a cancer, the next question will always be "what stage?". It is a known fact that early detection is the key in managing the disease. But once the disease is in its late stage, all we could do is try to prolong the time, prevent further suffering, and let them live their life.
I seen people who have been fighting with the Big C. I have seen them go through their surgery, have their chemo or being confined to the hospital due to infections. My worked as an Oncology Nurse had allowed me to be with those suffering from cancer pain in which narcotic medications are being given to ease the pain, but sometimes wont work at all. I dont want to see ate L go through this stuff, the picture of her being a cancer patient saddens me.
I know what stage IV cancer is. I know what she will go through. But I hoping for the best for her. She is strong, and I believe she can deal with this. With a little prayer that I can offer and God's divine intervention, I'm hoping she will have a smooth journey fighting with this big C.
and now, I just want to shout and say,
"Yes, SHE CANCERVIVE!"

Broken Hearted Me

he came on the right time, i was mending a broken heart.
he came to offer his hanky, helping to soothe those teary eyes.
he came and took my hand, helped me stand again
he came and now his gone. . .

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Wala na namang lovelive! I do miss him now.
Hopefully, somebody will help me stand again

The Spa Experience

One of the nicest thing to do is to have a good massage when you are off from work. And since I have an extra money to spare I tried City Lifestyle Spa last Friday.

Nagsimula ang hilig ko sa masahe mga 6 na buwan na ang nakakaraan ng masubukan ko ito sa Wensha due to a friend's advice. Anyway, City Lifestyle is located at Timog, Quezon City. It is a 6 story building that houses a fitness center and the spa. On level one is the fitness center, level two is the men's wet area. and level 6 is the VIP rooms for men. Siyempre yung ibang hindi ko nabanggit either hindi ko alam or pambabae.

So I started the experience at the wet area where I was welcomed by the attendantsthat are good, accommodating and friendly. Then i took a shower at the wet area then indulged myself at the jacuzzi. I also have tried their sauna and steam bath. Sa totoo lang, Medyo kailangan lang siguro ng konting ayos ang lugar. It doesn't look like a relaxing place to stay due to it's ambiance. Pero, okay na din siya.

After going wet, i then tried the massage at the 6th floor. ***** was my masseur, who was already at the front desk waiting for me. He accompannied me to the room where the massage will take place. The ambience was good, but i prefer candle lights as compared to the light coming from the wash room that is too bright. maybe I'm just the person that is sooooo photosensitive during massage that i want a place that is dim enough.

He then told me to get naked since I am on a private room, okay i said, and then we went off to the massage. The massage was difinitely recommendable. Ramil had taken his time to put pressure on every muscle of the body. Pressure and timing was great. No hurrying, he had made sure that every strokes that he does will make you feel relaxed. "Sarap talaga masahe mo" i told him. he then asked me if I had a massage experience before in which i naughtily replied, "anong klaseng experience?" He replied, "kayo talaga sir mapagbiro, pero, oo kasama na yon?" we had a little chat during the massage sharing our experiences and some stories. the best part of the massage, i wouldn't tell. it will be just between me and *****.

***** definitely made the experience unforgettable. and I'm pretty sure, i will be coming back for his massage.

Certified CSI Afficionado

One of the series I am hooked to right now is CSI New York.

I really love watching it. Sometimes, it comes to my mind that someday I wanted to become a Forensic nurse. well, i guess this will just be a dream.

Anyway, I can assure you that this series is great. try watching it!

Out on Pass Signing on!

It has been a long time frustration of mine to be able to capture the emotions that are being felt inside and be able to express it through words. However, it seems that when God showered His blessings to those gifted to play with words, I had fallen asleep and wasn't able to catch even a drop of his blessing.

Yes, i am a frustrated writer.

I started to dream of becoming one when I was in grade school. I always dreamed of becoming a writer. Though I must admit that playing with words is my weakness. Grammar and spellings are my worst enemies. But I still wanted to write. In high school, i joined the campus paper. Since I am not the one gifted with the talent to write, I entered the field of photojournalism. Luckily, it seems that I have a little talent playing with the lens but not really good at it.

Out on pass will serve as my avenue to express myself. You see, I am not a person who talks to their friends when I am broken. I hide my emotions most of time with my smile that is literally attached on my face most of the time. But this time, I think I am ready to open up.

Come and join me, let us go OUT ON PASS. . . .